“Always on my mind, forever in my heart”
We all have a date that will stay in our minds forever, a sharp memory that wounds us a little more every time it passes through our thoughts. For me, this date is 2 nd September 2016.
In September 2016 my world fell apart. My beautiful, sweet son Jack was taken from us, after suffering a severe asthma attack which resulted in the loss of his life. I literally felt my heart break, in places that I didn’t even know existed.
Jack was very much a ‘mummy’s boy’, which suited me just fine! We were forever having long-winded discussions; I would teach him about crystals and the spirit realm, and he would tell me about planets and blackholes. Our Jack loved the world and the mysteries of the universe; we would often sit out on the porch in complete silence, just gazing at the night sky and watching the stars dance.
Jack was 16 years old when he passed. Too young. He was a wonderful son, always smiling, always laughing. Jack was a real brainbox, with so much potential; he loved to learn and was a real smarty pants, always helping me with my phone or Facebook, as I’m useless with technology folks! An old head on young shoulders is what I used to call him. A beautiful soul is never forgotten, and little Jack had the most beautiful of souls.
For a long time I couldn’t move forwards, I felt like I was stuck in quicksand, powerless to escape; like I was being pulled deeper and deeper into the darkness. That pain never goes away, I’ll carry it to my grave in fact; you just have to learn to live with it.
‘Because someone we love is in Heaven, there’s a little bit of Heaven in our home…’
I take comfort in knowing that my Jack now lives amongst the angels, that he is watching down on our family, and that he is being looked after by his big brother John James. Jack often asked me what Heaven was like; when I described it to him he would say ‘it sounds magical Mum’… well now my beautiful, bright angel is in that magical dreamland.
I know that my Jack is still with me, and I want you to know that your loved ones are still with you too, always. And when my time comes to leave this world, I will run to my son like I’ve never run before.